LTNN. < Long Time No News.
I have been so busy.
To a point where I feel it's not right. Yep! That busy.
Perhaps, I haven't got used to a 'packed schedule' <-- That I have to be somewhere, do something, be on time, at least one activity on every day of the week. Yes, that's my schedule from now onwards and... It's gonna get busier as the months tend to pass.
So... BUSYBEE me!

With that being said, I am unable to blog as much as I yearn to. I guess only when I find a tendency to whine and rant about issues that inarguably come and disturb the perfect momentum..
But then, what is life without its' risks, controversies, and opportunities?
So when some idiot steps on my lil toes..Then yeah, you'll see an update from me . :D

So far so good. Being on the rush everyday feels good. Refreshing to my back-to-life  soul.
My mother was saying; "Wow, whatever happened to you? You are like back from the dead."
Laughed so hard that I didn't even ponder if that's a bad or good thing.

But come to think of it now, I manage to go to bed with a smile each night . Seriously!
Don't know bout you guys but when I know I'm getting closer to my dreams each night, it brings joy to me. And I am actually getting better sleep, compared  to the past. With the additional help of EXHAUSTION too...So yeah. I can't help but to smile. Knowing I'm starting my days on the right track and ending them with joy and satisfaction.
&& finally being able to pursue what I love AFTER the massive battles I've fought with time. (complicated)
 As for what I love...err I shouldn't have to repeat what, as if it ain't obvious enough! (:
  


Except that the more motivated you get, the MORE errands you have on your hands. Resulting in a To-Do list that just never ends...

Hope everyone is gettin on by well...
Well, I know I am.

(shall update soon on my S/S '10 favorites!! Finally got my hands on a magazine collection book I've been looking everywhere. Was so hard to find one that was in a brand new condition. As most bookstores don't wrap their local magazines which irks me.. They should have one unwrapped for light browsing, and the rest protected! My heart hurts whenever I see magazines all bashed up by cheapos who read instead of browsing!)

I detest , let me repeat,
DETEST rude people with no etiquette or any form of a wee bit of thing called Formality; manners.
C'mon, you Americans should know better! (Being Asian, you know that manners doesn't furnish from Asia)
Before I came years ago, I painted a nice picture of America in my head where it's surrounded by fresh pastures and nice people who took their grins to their ears and all they said was "Please, Thank You & Sorry"
Guess I wasnt that far away from home.
But being Singaporean, does make a difference to how rude Americans can be.
Yea yea before you get offended & start pointing fingers.


When you have a job like mine that engage with 1)formality
and on good days I get --> 2) manners!

Makes it easy or the latter.


More like your rudeness is killing me.



I would actually say I am very well-mannered out of many Singaporeans.(well brought-up thanks to my <3Mama, this I have to say my mom has done well. Single mom-3-kids and she had time to teach Proper Manners?/ How bout that ) Even with the adapted British ways in Singapore, you still find many obnoxious people out there.
I don't hold a grudge towards ill-mannered people. (Under many circumstances, families have different way of teachings, tho i may not agree with some of their ways of life & mannerisms, I respect & understand that) But I still insist that no matter your family background or teachings, by now, with our informative society, one should at least know proper manners or at least embrace others' that show it.
I get really ticked off with the rude. (Rude is just plain obnoxious, no acceptable reasons I can find)
So there is a difference.

Back to my job.
I worked today and just realized my dislike for rude people is growing rapidly stronger.
With that, would come a nice pleasant person who have some decent amount of manners in them
& help make my day that converge to forget about the worthless hostility.

Overall, I hate my job.
Well, this big aspect of it.
Co-workers also apply to this.
But that would go into a whole different area of topic..
Cooperation.
Still, I don't go to work to make friends
I go to work to work!

No wonder the last time I checked, I enjoyed my scraps of paper & pencil & L'OFFICIEL magazines more than people. * well the good ones in my eyes are hard to find. therefore i waste no time.

I guess this isn't my world. If I could only paint it the way I see it.


Really, amazing how I can sleep tonight and look forward to the bland days ahead.
Amazing too how much of a long way I still have!
Good luck Amanda!!!!!

I'm staying positive out of this negative life that continues to breed and breed..

As I watch some drama on the net...
one of the biggest unfolds in it points something out to me tonight..., a fact.

That the power of one from your past overwhelms your present in a flash.
And all the years of mighty tries to dislocate yourself from your past and to indulge into states of amnesia, all just sweeps away into dust.

I don't have to prove my theory in the least bit.
Because I know.
I know.
That is me.

I 'd rather lose everything and start anew than to be at the mercy of someone malicious.

Have You Ever Been In Two Places At Once.

I Have..Well At Least My Life Has Been. Partially spent, lived, you can say as good as being physically split apart.
It's No Blessing.
I've Begun To Lose My Footing In Both Places.

The Absence Of My Origin, & The Presence of My Destination.
To A Point Where I Don't Feel I Belong To Either.



I'm not sure if there's anyone who ever felt the same as I do now.